So, been awhile since my last update, everything been all cool. Last Saturday, took off early from work to go to Stellar Fight 19 @ Delaware! Brandon & Corbin from my academy had a match. So i left work, drove to Annapolis Mall to meet up with Chris and we carpool to Delaware. Reach Delaware, had a hard time searching for the location. The place layout is really messed up. But in anycase, Really an experience for me. Didn't went to see a real match before. Brandon won with referee decision 2 - 1. Whereas Corbin lost. Kinda a pity. Corbin had his opponent in an ankle lock. But his opponent leg wasn't straight. So the referee stood them up. Ended with judge decision of 0 - 3. Corbin lost. After the event, kinda had a after party at the academy. So, Chris and i took off first. Since we had to take a little detour before reaching. After he got his car, i sped like 90 MPH back to Baltmore. Turned out nobody came back. Sadden.

Anyway, so this Tuesday, i went early for the Kettlebell class. Normally, kettlebell class is half an hour. But since the next half an hour, nobody came, the instructor had another half an hour for me. First half wad pretty much of introduction only. Second half was more intense. Now my whole body is aching. Darn. After kettlebell, had my MMA lesson. Did some combos and ground work. 10 minutes before lesson end, coach told us to grapple. But Chris and i decided that we shall spar a little. Man, i gotta admit. I always had confidence that i can spar well. But damn, i really ain't good at all. Man. I need to train more. After Chris, this new guy, if you have seen my training video, the one that i partnered with, came to me and ask if he can fight me. So i spar twice. Man. Totally out of breath. Needa spar more!

So that's about it. That's my life now. Having something to do. Which i enjoy.

Regards,
Dark Soul

Wednesday, November 13, 2013
Posted by Dark_Soul at 7:21 PM

This month, Well. Time pass so fast after the Korea Trip. I wanna go to Korea again. Probably next year. Since I won't be able to go back to Singapore on February. Which was my original plan. But anyway, Let's see. What happened this month?

August 24th. I drove down to New York to pick up Siok Hui and her family from JFK airport!! So I started my day off working from 0800 to 1200 hours. Then I went to prepare to drive down to New York. First, went to Sam's club to get gas. Then went to bank to withdraw money. Was kinda late already so no choice but had to go pass the toll road at Maryland. Anyway, driving down was smooth till New Jersey. There the jam was pretty much heavy and smooth. Due to construction on the highway. Then this incident happened while I was driving down. This white Sedan. just merged into the highway. I was driving at the outermost lane. Was kinda late, so I was speeding down. Anyway, this car which just merged into the highway, From first lane just wanna cross over to the outermost lane. Without checking his damn blind spot. Almost crashing into me. I honk him. And he went back to the third lane. So as I was passing him, I pointed him middle finger while he was showing signs of saying "sorry". Then I just sped off after pointing middle finger at him and passing him. Then Jam all the way till airport. Was kinda in a need of going to the bathroom. But didn't had enough time to stop at a rest area. So just endured down to Airport. Reach the Airport, ran down from the carpark to find Siok Hui. Walk around for awhile to look for her. Finally get to see her. Afterwards, I realize. I forgotten where did I park my car at. *shy* . Second incident. At the airport, I paid for the parking ticket at the machine and head towards the gate. At the gate, the machine couldn't read my ticket. And the representative said that I hadn't pay for my ticket yet. Got me quite pissed. Thus, I had to pay for my ticket twice. But of course, I called them to ask for a refund. Which takes 30 days. One thing funny was that at the carpark, Siok Hui's Mom told her to sit in the front. While at the back of the Driver's side. Thus almost tricking Siok Hui into almost getting into the driver's seat. Due to the left and right configuration for Singapore and America.

After which, drove them to their hotel and had dinner together. Felt kinda guilty because kept going the wrong way. Didn't really know how to use a GPS.

Well, Fun time really ends fast. Been like 4 years since i last saw Siok Hui, and now, I get to see her for that few hours. How i wish time was a little much longer.

Let's see. Yesterday, Got couple of injuries from MMA Training. First was my inner lips. Then my feet. This newcomer was training his Jab, Cross, Hook & Uppercut. Partly was my fault. I wasn't ready yet. And he just punch. But i too felt that he had too much power but unable to control it. So, He did his Jab, Cross & Hook. My pads wasn't in place yet for the uppercut and he just did it. Hitting partially of the pad making me hitting my own mouth. And i was bleeding from my inner lips. Worse part is, I didn't put on my mouth guard yet. I figured that during practice, i shall not wear the mouth guard till when we are wrestling. From now on, I shall wear the mouth guard even when practice. Afterwards, I didn't partner with the newcomer. So i just practice Jab, Cross and roundhouse kick on the punching bag. I think I'm kicking it wrongly. Thus, my feet now is all swollen and uh.. how do i put it? Blistered? But overall, It's fun. On a side note, My first ever injury from MMA Training was on my knuckle. Holding the pad while my partner did knee kicks and kinda got scratch by it? Don't know how to put it. I didn't had my hand wraps yet. So couldn't protect my hand. So that's about it for now. Still looking for a Korean teacher. Nobody is replying to my Wyzant request. Sadden.

Regards,
Dark Soul

Wednesday, September 4, 2013
Posted by Dark_Soul at 11:25 PM

Let's see. My life, is still pretty much the same. BORING! So, right now, I'm like trying to find some hobbies. Something to learn. That way, I won't just waste time sleeping on my off days. For now, every Tuesday and Thursday, I have classes. So fun, I'm enjoying it. Hope I won't regret learning? lol.

I actually tried to apply for a FA job. And was pretty much sadden with the fact that I wasn't selected. I really would love to have a change of job. It's like working here, I don't have any social life. Though it is me to be anti social, I would pretty much like to change that.

What else? Hmm? So bored? Like nobody to text with anymore. I guess that's pretty much it huh? lol.

Monday, August 19, 2013
Posted by Dark_Soul at 3:49 PM

Today is the. Hmm. Third day? Basically, we are staying at the hotel most of the time. Can't really go out due to some things.

Honestly, I wasn't expecting this. I was thinking more of having a fun holiday. But don't understand why she have such a big problem with me when this really never happen before.

Anyway, Let's just skip to the last day. So, tonight is the last day in Korea. Tomorrow afternoon will be leaving for Airport. I can say, though all this attitude thing and whatsoever happen, I never did really regret coming to Korea. Admitting that I'm quite heartbroken. Paying out so much. But got crap. First from fights and leaving me alone. Okay, There is really something wrong with me. But hey, We are on a holiday together. Why now? Why not before. Anyway, For the last few days, I really didn't plan anything to do. ASSUMING that we will go out together. But sadly, I was real wrong. What can i do though? Cry out loud? So basically, I'm mostly staying in the Hotel alone.

Regards,
Dark Soul

Tuesday, July 23, 2013
Posted by Dark_Soul at 12:45 PM

I'm in Korea right now!!! Let's see. Went to New York to get my hair done. Didn't plan to dye hair at first. But my stylist convinced me. So i dye my hair. Now my hair awesome. xD

Reach back home at probably 2245. Shag. Then final pack my luggage, Cab came on time. Went down to BWI, Damn, All army peeps were there. It was hell of a wait. Then got my boarding ticket, Went for my last smoke, Went thru the security check.

Then here i am now, Damn had to get wet. Raining. Walk in the rain because can't find the places.

It's just feel so sad. Loving you. But have to act like I Don't. Put up a I Don't care face. Listening to how other guys confess to you, telling you to choose the one who can make you happy. It's just sucks. I don't know. Depress. But I'm trying hard not to show it. Don't wanna affect yours.

Okay. Let's get back to Korea. I reached Korea. First time on a trip. Waited for her over at baggage claim. Went thru security check and took the bus down to Grand. Reached and was trying hard to find Grand. Did manage to find Grand in the end. Went to the floor where Grand is. Was kinda shocked. Was so different from what I expected. Had the consultation. Didn't really wanna let anybody know that I'm doing it too. But fail. After Grand, we tried to get a cab with the help of Grand's translator. But the stupid damn ass driver refuse to drive us because of our luggage. End up decided to take the train. Finally reach over at Lex. Can say disappointed with Lex. Not as awesome as I thought it would be. So, spent awhile in the room texting and checking in. Afterwhich, went to have dinner!! Honestly, I don't know what we had. It's like soup based bulgogi. I really whole day felt so blur, when I open the umbrella, I accidentally hit her with it. Then I was punished by her. But I was like laughing away. Opps. Bought some snacks, realize they sell Marlboro ice blast over here too. (: But for the upcoming month, I won't be able to smoke.

That's about it for today. Right now should is like 5am? I can't fall asleep. Sitting over in a corner. Updating. Putting my emotions together.

Regards,
Dark Soul

Friday, July 12, 2013
Posted by Dark_Soul at 12:58 PM

Been awhile. Nothing to blog till now. Actually, not yet. But soon. I'm going Korea!! With her.

For now, really nothing much. My life is no life. Everyday work. Except this past week, been working full shift. 14/ 15 hours. Off day went to mall. Get my international driving permit. Research on places to go. Sleep at 3am. Wake up at 7am. Total shagness.

Well, next week Thursday will be flying off. Wednesday morning, work awhile. Then off to NewYork. Haven't been to NewYork for awhile now. Going for a haircut and maybe check out some tattoos. I wanna get something on my right arm. But so far can't really find a nice design. Anybody wanna help me to design?

Sometimes feel so depressing. I know it's normal for me to be depressing. But still. Can't help it. Really want to be with her. Really want something to happen. But doubt anything will. Too bad so sad. Trying not to think about it.

Korea!! Let's leave some memories.

Post Korea Trip
Friday, July 5, 2013
Posted by Dark_Soul at 2:42 PM

Hey Darkness Within, I'm back. You know, to be honest, I'm really sad. Finding out that she have a boyfriend. Well, there is nothing wrong with it. It's just that perhaps I, hope too much for her. Thus I got thrown down again. It's like for real, I can only think about her. My whole mind is only thinking about her. Maybe I shouldn't have had too much hope. Im just tired. Tired of putting on my freaking mask. I can't really say out how sad I am. There are things to be considered. What if, I said out that im really actually very sad to her. Then she stop talking to me? I don't want that to happen. I'm not trying to act like a freaking hero here. But it's just, as long as she is happy. It's fine. Doesn't matter if I think I am suffering. I'm just tired of not being able to be real to people.

Sometimes really wanna find somebody to talk to. Removing my mask. But I just can't seem to find anybody. My BFFs. Recently haven't been texting the female. Guess she's busy with her own life too. She's not replying my text too. So can't really be bothered to text again. She also thinks I should be used to it already. so no point telling her right? Guy. Doesn't seem he will understand me. He warned me before. But I didn't listen. I wanted to keep that hope. So he wouldn't really bother. That's all my friends I have. Till now, I still keep that hope. Can't seem to give up on that hope. Maybe time will?

It's just, feel that slowly being myself again. Feeling life is meaningless. I realize I always hold onto something which will never happen. Feel like when I let someone into my world, she's at the door already. Somebody came and took her away. Why most people around me can be happy. Why can't I be happy too? Where is mine? Have I not been looking hard enough? Yea, I'll admit it. I'm weak. Ever since I came back, I let myself become weak. To be honest, i don't need anybody else to understand me. Just her will do. But it doesn't seem that she want to understand me. I really wanna go into her mind, wanna find out what am i to her. How small am i to her. Really wish that she can come on March. By then i should have an answer. Really, that's my last wish.

Lucky for me, It won't be long all this will end. Alright. That's it. Time to put on my mask again. Byebye.

Regards,
Dark Soul

Friday, December 21, 2012
Posted by Dark_Soul at 6:34 PM

All of my Signature is done by Shadow X.
Big thanks to him!